To Love and Be Loved.
Sometimes there’s one, who walks into your Life with ease and no reservation. There’s an immediate unspoken understanding; an undeniable bond. You talk to for hours and/or moments of peaceful silence. Neither feels inferior, uncomfortable, nor judged. Only Love exists. Because without judgement, insecurity, or fear, there lies nothing but Love to exist; Love Is, all. Love Is. Fear is not…real. You seek happiness for one another, indefinitely, selflessly, while trying to find and understand blissful living independently, or maintaining it.
We do not lose ourselves in one another because as we give Love we find our hearts capacity to see it within ourselves. We then are happy just in the selfless acts of giving Love through our advice and support. Whether mental, physical, emotional or spiritual support, we GIVE, in Love. No sacrifice. No expectation. We surrender our time and selfish, ‘egoic’ desires or so called “issues” to make time to help, listen, and resolve for another or simply talk out a situation to redirect any impulsive or conditioned fear state thinking.
Never Losing sight of ourselves in this shared journey…own goals, desires and Life mission. Only enhanced by the UNCONDITINAL LOVE received and given. This to me, is to Love and to be Loved, without reserve. Thank you to my Mom and my best friend. They are my True definition of one of the greatest virtues in Life: altruism. As God so Loved his people & church, they’ve shown & reflected the same selfless, unconditional Love. One Love I can believe in only because they teach and show me every single day its existence. I only pray to attract and reflect more authentic relationships as such, and encourage its Truth in others, for ever and aways. Thank you for never letting me lose sight of who I am at my Truest self: Light & Love. I Look forward to a lifetime continuing to teach learn and inspire one another…..
Love Uncondionally and without reserve, Much Love. CcL
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2013 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 26,000 times in 2013. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 10 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.
“I am my own biggest critic. Before anyone else has criticized me, I have already criticized myself. But for the rest of my Life, I am going to be with me and I don’t want to spend my life with someone who is always critical. So I am going to stop being my own critic. It’s time that I accept all the great things about me. The only person who can pull me down is myself, and I’m not going to let myself pull me down anymore.
You can be the most beautiful person in the world and everybody sees light and rainbows when they look at you, but if you yourself don’t know it, all of that doesn’t even matter. Every second that you spend on doubting your worth, every moment that you use to criticize yourself, is a second of your life wasted; a moment of your life thrown away. Don’t waste any of your seconds, don’t throw even one of your moments away.” Live IN Love.
If you are anything like me or the majority of women I’ve ever known, you relate to this wonderfully open and honest excerpt from C. JoyBell C. For the rest of our lives, the person we will share our journey with most is our own self. Your relationship with yourself, your True self within, is the most powerful relationship you will ever have!!! What kind of person do you want to spend the rest of your Life with??
I know I want to spend my life with a person who adores, challenges, enlightens, fights for, sees the good, LOVES all, Loves me and makes me the best me I can be….So that’s who I have to be. As I continue to evolve into the woman I want to be, I battle the good “Am I ever going to be enough?” complex, learned over years of enduring defeat, failure, mistakes and loss. But as I remind you, I remind myself…I am flawed; beautifully scarred and human:)) I do not strive for perfection but to use my imperfections to help teach and encourage the resilience that lies in each of us; to inspire you to see the light & LOVE that you ARE. Because, in the breakdown lies the beauty in who you are becoming and deepens the knowledge, expands your capacity to overcome and, most importantly, opens your heart to Love beyond any circumstance. To have lived & learned is the greatest gift to yourself and the world:) You are beautiful. Know this. Every scar, every curve, every line, every mark, every tear, every smile, every breath is yours, only yours. There is nothing more beautiful than YOU, because you are ONE of a kind … destined to leave your mark on this world. See, Give, Be Love and you will Be Loved, always!!!
Love You. .. so should you xx
“Drum sound rises on the air, it’s throb, my heart. A voice inside says, “I know you’re tired, but come. This is the way.” ~ Rumi When the world says “give up”. Faith whispers “Try one more time”. Hours of training, dedication, sweat, pain, sacrifice, renewal, determination and perseverance…..I Believed! This IS the way!!!! Life.
October 20th, 2013 ~ San Francisco Nike Women’s Marathon
“I’ve learned that finishing a marathon isn’t just an athletic achievement. It’s a state of mind; a state of mind that says anything is possible.” From Holy hills, a frost bit hand, and sharp pain in my hip, this race proved to be the hardest yet most enlightening challenge, both physically and mentally, of my Life. ’Running is the greatest metaphor for life, because you get out of it what you put into it!!!!!! The girl who started the marathon is not the same who finished.
‘The marathon is a charismatic event. It has everything. It has drama. It has competition. It has camaraderie. It has heroism… Somehow, some way I pushed through in Faith and found a new personal greatness!!! MY marathon PR: 26.2 miles, 3 hours 37 minutes. Whatever you do, whether you are content where you are, or you strive for more, do not forget the lessons you have learned in your journey. After all, it is not necessarily they goal you must pursue, instead savour the time it takes you to get there! Take pride in how far you have come. Have Faith in how far you can go. And remember to enjoy the journey!!!! xx Believe and you will Become!!!
Please join Believe And Become this Sunday, October 13th for the annually AIDS WALK LA! My BFF and I will be leading team Believe and Become on this 10K (6 mile) walk through West Hollywood in efforts to support the AIDS epidemic. We support several charities through my pending non-profit and after walking for others the last couple years, thought what a great opportunity for Believe and Become to give back, bring amazing peeps together and contribute to one of the greatest causes. I’d LOVE for you to join me & the team!!
You can register @ www.aidswalk.net and join team: Believe And Become. We will meet at Melrose & San Vincente @9a for sign in, the walk begins at 10a Then we’ll refuel & celebrate at Tortilla Republic on Robertson:)) I know not everyone wants to RUN races with me but y’all can surely walk it out with me!!! WE #Believe in the cause, the cure; let’s #Become the change! Raising funds or just walkin it out, WE BElieve in being the change!!!!!! “Believe in a cause; BEcome the change.” Can’t wait!!! Much love…. #aidswalk2013 #BEthechange #redlipstick #rednikes #redcure #WeBelieve #IBelieve xx ~ #BelieveandBecome
“She Believed in dreams, all right, but she also believed in doing something about them.” ~ Walt Disney ….SHE IS YOU, SHE IS ME, I AM HER.
We all have dreams. However you want to look at it: a goal, a vision, an aspiration, “bucket list”, “When I grow up…”. All grown up now, and although my dreams may not correlate with what I dreamt of at age 10, to “LIVE the DREAM” would be the ultimate dream come true! So what does that even mean? I have always been a little apprehensive of stating that I am a “dreamer” because this perspective, to me, implied that dreamer’s dream of the things they want, seeking a goal or a desire “to be” or have something more than right now; reaffirming a state of lack there of or not enough. But the truth is, although some of us may feel content, or should I say safe with our current state, there’s always a little more we want to do, achieve, aspire to be because we are ever evolving beings with the complexity and capacity to do great things in this Universe, beyond our wildest dreams….no matter who or where you are, that is Truth we cannot deny! THAT I DO BELIEVE! The only way to evolve is to have a vision of who you want to be. So I recently redefined the “dreamer” perspective and I would like to think of myself more as a DOer. But there’s no way to DO without having a clear vision, a Dream. It starts with one inspired vision.
To pursue a desire that lives within you brings you closer to who you are truly meant to be. This is the definion of inspiration. Being aligned with your True self within. We may feel a burning desire for many things in Life but without action, it remains a distant dream. I was recently asked, what do you want?? “Well, ultimately?”, I asked. Without question, I felt the answer was, to be happy! Again, he asked, “What do you really want? What is it that you want, to BEcome, to fulfill this thing you call happy?” I said, “well I am happy…I think. But I guess I want to do more. Do more for others while staying true to my artistic passion.” As I said these words, my heart came alive…I was inspired to do just that! But how? Fear wanted to take over but when inspired, IN Spirit, Love overwhelms your heart and you’ll just know…this is it! Fear is overruled:)
When people ask what do you do or what do you want to do, I think we all resort to our go-to “story” we’ve stuck with our entire lives. It gives us somewhat an identity but also keeps us in a state of stagnation or complacency, inhibiting us from growing and reaching our full potential. The story changes, believe me:)) Something huge has shifted in me in the last year!!! If asked “what do you want?” since I’ve been living in LA (9 years), I’d say to be a successful actress, influencer and to have authentic, loving relationships. I began to feel unsure about what that even meant anymore. It sounded so generic and cliche, or was I just judging myself again?
It’s always seemed so clear to me as far as what I wanted. To act! It fulfills me, I can make people feel, expose and express Truth. But it became so apparent that eventually it was truly the most indulgent, ego driven career for years, I never wanted to admit. But I’ve learned, there is a balance. The exhausting hustle was one thing but then to fall into these self loathing cycles of not feeling good enough or worthy enough if I didn’t get the role, became so contradicting to the Life I thought I’d be living in my mid twenties. I dreamt of that house, the family, the stability. I always somehow made it work but emotionally, I’d inevitably wake up and reevaluate why it is that I continued to pursue this “passion” of mine and perhaps open my eyes, be present and see I am being called to do something greater, bigger, for others; to make a REAL difference. I realized I felt so far from all of those elements I listed that I wanted in my life. I felt like it was a distant dream again, that only feels like reality if it appears in my REM dreams;) when I’m sleeping uggg. How do I awaken this into my reality? The HUGE shift you ask?? I surrendered. I have learned, it all comes down to LOVE. Love life, love people, love what you do, love who you are! All I really know is what makes me happy NOW, in the right now, is my capacity to Love and be loved, and that is when miracles happen. Love is the essance of each of us and I’m thoroughly at peace when I’m in love with life.
I do not find myself judging my own Life all the time. But I see there is a healthy balance pursuing my passion while not consuming my existence with being attached to the outcome! Surrender…a huge shift in my perspective. It’s not that I ever lived an entirely shallow life; it’s actually what I battled to NOT be most. Therefore I see so clearly now how it never truly allowed me to be my authentic self when I struggled with this internal battle; to be authentic in an image obsessed, superficial, fame and money driven industry and culture (or town). I feel beyond blessed for the opportunities, relationships, travel, accomplishments, just surviving days of confusion, anxiety, relationships, daily battles…The thing is WE all survive this thing called Life. We live in it and hopefully find the strength and motivation to pick ourselves up and pursue it every day, with a passion and purpose.
If you’re anything like me, there was a time I didn’t know what that was anymore. Purpose. Maybe it was distracted by a breakup, a loss, a “dream” shattered, a transition in finding yourself, again…and then again. I dont think it only happens whan you are 16, then maybe again at 21, it’s a life journey, knowing thyself is an ever evolving progression and practice, as we are ever evolving into the person He designed us to be. But you must first make the decision to GO for Life and never stop. The more we know the more we grow! And sometimes in this growing process, the compromise, is stepping into the unknown and finding New purpose, and letting go of your story. You must be brave enough to let go of that person you think you are to Become the person you want to be.
I speak on this today, because I have felt I’ve been called to do something great for something greater than myself. While I’ll always be an artist, a creator, what that thing is, I have gained the humility over the last 4 years to say, perhaps I don’t know yet. The thing I DO know is that He never fails me and He is always on time. “He qualifies the chosen….” We are all chosen, hand selected to do great things! If you’d tell me 5 years ago what I had the potential to do: unfathomable. I Believe we are all here to make a real difference…Im not insinuating that it should be everyone’s dream or goal to change the world or leave a legacy, but I know there’s a place and way for each and every one of us to at least try. Since my accident 4 years ago I feel as if I’ve been called to: Inspire, build an empire, Write, Run, Act, create, speak, teach, heal….feel, LIVE LIFE! I feel as if the more I grow the more I know and I cannot stop exploring, living, feeling, believing.
You will inevitably find new purpose or place at some point, so I hear:)) so don’t get discouraged if you feel as if your plan for you isn’t going how YOU planned! It’s God’s plan. God is leading you to exactly where you are suppose to be….Change is necessary to design the Life you want. We all have dreams but it is important to clarify and be specific on what it is you really want and you might be surprised how the design gets redefined into exactly what you need to get. The outcome: the Life you desire and deserve at your Truest self!!! Let us all Live the DREAM…..
If Life is a beach, I’m just playing in the sand;)) But to cross the ocean, I must first have the courage to lose sight of the shore…….