Dear Universe, you are a mystery. Glorious and captivating, you are much greater that life itself. As I try to embrace the unpredictable shifts in Life, days that exude such beauty or such disasters, even loss… I look up and say, You are greater than I. Let Your purpose prevail.

As quick as the wind morphs into flames, a whole life we thought we built can literally burn to ashes, in an instant. Loss comes in many forms. The deepest fear in my own life: something that once was and no longer exists. As I’ve learned to endure the loss of my own hand, lost the most horrific lawsuit 7 years later, broken relationships, to assets, Lord knows I’ve done my best to build myself up again and stay unattached (a practice I try to lead my life by) But how does one stay open to everything but attached to nothing esp in the midst of a loss??? Ironically, I struggled with a vanished relationship this month ha! I came home to #Perspective My Aunt and Uncle’s home they built over 40 years in burnt to ashes, lost everything today 🙏🏼. There is always something greater than “I” We cannot minimize the pain sudden loss inflicts, but try to accept the strength and purpose we gain in the process. Some things are beyond our control for there are NO absolutes but this moment and change. I’m elated by the response and support of this travesty for my Family, my hometown #VenturaCounty going up in flames and the place I call home, #LA I pray not to take even a breath for granted. Sometimes we must look up, spread our broken wings, and give Him praise in the midst because we are Alive. “God works all things good according to His purpose.” ~ Aunt Jackie’s 1st response after losing her and Uncle Charlie’s home. Thank the Lord for our #Faith 🙏🏼🔥🙏🏼 #thomasfire #prayforventura #prayforLA #One xx

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It’s ok to lose yourself for a little bit, while. In books, in music, in running, in Art, in nature, in #Life . Let yourself get lost, to find YOU. .. Because who YOU are, just as you are, is exactly who the World needs. ~ @CHAUNTALLEWIS As #iAm #BelieveandBecome xx


Life has never felt so revealing!  For me, making sense in the calm is sometimes more challenging or frustrating than discovering Truth or new revelations, if you will, in absolute chaos. Because in these mysterious chapters in Life, inevitably, we do find ourselves on the other side.  As if you were meant to “go through it” to find yourself again…?  Not in like the 16 year old, I think I’m starting to get it, or again at 18, 21, 25 when we formulate all our opinions and think we have it figured out: “Believe Me.  This IS the way it is.”  …. Well, if you’re human like Me and the rest of us, it’s an ever evolving process as we are ever evolving beings.  But when called to whatever it is you go through, you know you must fight through the mysterious chaos to BECOME who you are at your truest self.  At least that’s what I’ve discovered over the pain, confusion, mundane, highest of highs to indescribable lows.  And most days, I Wonder if I’ll ever get to the other side.  You know, that unconditional happiness.  But, when I say Life is revealing, I find my happiness NOW in gratitude. For what I know, what I’ve seen, who I’ve met, who I am, what I GET TO do. Ha so maybe I get it!? LOL …. hardly.

So recap: Moved to LA at 19, Actress/Celebrity Makeup Artist, crazy Runner/fitness, lost a hand along the way, lost a “love of my life”, continued creating with ALL of my heart, accomplished dreams I could cry just thinking of the moment I prayed for it… I suppose I’m just DOing me, as the kids say, but quite frankly…I DON’T QUIT, and here I am in complete surrender, “What’s next, Lord?” Life is beautiful; beyond grateful.  Is this the potential you set me out  to live?

I’ve lost attachment to what does not serve me and also, to what I THINK does.  So in these moments of loss, or confusion or bliss or that in between thing (hmmm so I’m back to this, really?) I’ve decided to GET LOST. Get lost in it or out of it, in other dimensions of life you normally wouldn’t tap into.  Whether in the bliss of what IS, the process of what is to pass, the new comings or a new beginning.  Like a student at my first day of school, I now wake up and say “I CAN’T WAIT TO ‘GET TO’….”!  I GET TO do Life!  Not knowing what is yet to come is assurance that the best days are still to come.  That’s not to say I haven’t experienced some of the best days a girl could ever ask for, but there’s more.  I just KNOW it.  How do I know? Because, for my entire life, He has never failed to lead me there.  Somewhere, I didn’t even know I was seeking.  My worldly, conditioned mind instinctively reverts to, what about the bad? Oh yea, that terrible moment, horrific feeling that happened or might happen again?  I always try to remind myself, what could be worse than, well, what we’ve already endured.  And I’m not just talking about near death experiences or trauma or loss like some of us were called to rise up and overcome. To BE human, we face debilitating fears or doubts or anxiety or comparison or horrible relations and/or questioning your Life’s purpose itself.  No one said it was going to easy, oh but our discoveries through each and every experience will be worth it.  And if it feels, say, to be worse, you were NOT brought to it if you were not strong enough to conquer, learn and teach others from it; once you perhaps get LOST and when you inevitably GET TO the other side.

I am only human.  But I do Believe.  It’s in the unknown we discover who the World needs … You. Me. We.

All my LOVE. ~ @ChauntalLewis xx

I CHOSE LIFE


For the first time in 7 years, I was inspired by the words that were coming out of my own mouth. I was spiritually naked, exposed, vulnerable that day. I was finally talking about who I really am. Love working with Providence Health & Services and my dearest friend Michelle Marie to continue to share & inspire through my personal story.  #HealthBeat #BelieveandBecome xx

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W e Create Our Own Paradise

We create our own Paradise, wherever we are…

The concept of Heaven on Earth never felt so real to me until I truly began to experience it for myself.  “Heaven is a state of mind, not a location, because Spirit is everywhere in everything.  If I said you could be in Paradise right this second, would you come with me or stay back, in disbelief that perhaps you too are worthy of this Paradise” ~ Dyer.  I believe this man can truly bring you the inspiration and clarity you need right now, just as a reminder that God is right here, every step of the way!  Please read his blogs and daily affirmations, practice throughout your days and let his legacy LIVE!  I guarantee you will feel the Love start to heal & you can begin to find peace in everything you do!  Why?  Because I love you.

We create our own paradise.   I remember my first glimpse of this new found appreciation & peace within; it was immediately after my accident.  I was driving home in the car with my sister & her boyfriend, who played as close to a brother as it gets, only 4 days after 3/18.  Perfectly fitting, “Live your Life” by Rhianna came on just as we left the UCLA hospital!  I will never forget as tears of joy & bliss & gratituded fled down my face.  I could see the beauty in the bluest sky, leaves greener, trees fuller, birds far more delicate & mysterious than ever, colors more vibrant.  I let the light in and I could see, truly see the beauty of Life.

“In the soul of man there lies one insular Tahiti, full of peace and joy.” – Melville. xx

THE LIFE YOU LIVE IS THE SERMON YOU PREACH

You never know who’s listening, truly listening.  Every day we share our opinions, our beliefs, our judgements without ever consciously being aware of what we preach.  You might not realize who’s looking up to you, who you may inspire and what lives you are changing by the things you say, and more importantly, what you […]

You never know who’s listening, truly listening.  Every day we share our opinions, our beliefs, our judgements without ever consciously being aware of what we preach.  You might not realize who’s looking up to you, who you may inspire and what lives you are changing by the things you say, and more importantly, what you DO.  To say actions speak is an understatement.  What we do not only affects our own lives but has the ability to inspire, disrupt, heal, hurt, motivate, discourage, lift up, or let down…. What message do you want to leave behind??   Today I ran 10 miles, climbed 3, 13 miles later, not because I had to, not because I necessarily wanted to…but today, Im Alive & I get to. Do Life.  I feel tired, defeated, anxious, confused and scared at times, as we all do.  More in the last two years, living on my own.  But what if I quit?  What If I just gave up?  What service then would I be doing for the world or myself ??

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After what most considered my traumatic, life debilitating accident, I honestly had thoughts of letting it become just that.  Sometimes, I just wanted to stop fighting to make sense of it all; when I and others around me might understand if I did.  Instead people called ME an inspiration!? When I first heard this I thought, Me? How? For what?  My heart hurts.  I wanted to scream at some point every single day.  I’d come to a point in my Life where I wanted to give it all up.  Yes, contrary to the daily inspiration I projected.  As I dedicated my experience to help others, I was still hurting, bad.  Ironically, or perhaps purposefully, my hand was least of my problems, I’d say.  It was ironic that this new found gift to “inspire” had emotionally overwhelmed me; the new direction my life was taking was so enlightening yet surreal.  I began to feel stuck, alone, and back to my old ways of feeling not enough.  This time to not only a let down to MY own expectations I had on myself but mostly to others.  I didn’t feel worthy of the enlightened perspective that so often poured out of me; a “light”, others would say often, that so many could see apparently, but myself.  “I didn’t sign up for this”, I shouted out, literally, one day.  I am exhausted, anxious all the time.  The thought to just be in an social setting where I knew I would have to be that “inspiration”  or subject of perspective on Life, haunted me.  To show up.  To say the right things, especially to those who looked up to me or looked forward to meeting or talking to me about resilience or overcoming…what if I didn’t say the right things or I was having a bad day, what if I didn’t leave them with a new perspective and inspire them?  What if I DIDN’T WANT TO!!?

The pressure I put on myself after the accident to use my story to help was a failure to everything I expressed over the years.  Who was I to preach “Believe and Become”, when I struggle to Believe in myself?  I realized I didn’t break free of my self- indulgent “not enough” phase I struggled so much with in my early 20’s.  I became the one let down because ALL I could be was me.  And “just ME”, I didn’t think was worthy or enough. But what I felt in my heart, at my purest moments of inspiration, my calling if you will, was to show up, be me, inspire, just being me and that was something I was learning and creating new every day.  Never failing, in Faith, I was ‘miraculously’ renewed when I least expected it.  I became an inspiration only after I became inspired in my own life.  I redirected my new Life as a new beginning to Live, truly LIVE.   To be inspired, to me, is to be IN Spirit.  Now, INspiration somehow, somewhere fills me up, between moments of clarity and especially moments lost, confused, helpless, not knowing what to do next.  I accept now that I’ve been given a gift, a role to help teach and inspire, which I believe is all of our purpose while we are here…God’s plan will always prevail.  But I still know it’s not until I stop resisting this calling that the Lord’s work will truly prevail.

I continued posting my daily inspirations, sharing my journey, because again those were the authentic moments I felt inspired, anointed or compelled to share the best I knew how, through my writing.  I shared my experiences or remedies that had worked for me during times of pain or confusion.  As I tried helping myself I projected it outward for us all to learn by because I was the one battling more than anyone I knew, as far as I knew it😉  Intellectually I understood the simplicity of just “Believe and Become”, but how do we maintain a state of happiness & vision & hope & Faith* when we feel things start to crumble around us?  I’d start my day with a grateful perspective yet almost turn to realities of the worldly things I felt lacking or inhibiting me: companionship, career, medical debt, fear.  I so badly wanted that True confidence I knew lived within, but geeez my determined ego!  This negative egoic mind reminded me, “you have one hand, you’re akward in social settings, you’re not qualified to be a motivational speaker, you should give up on the whole actress thing…you’re not good enough.”  Don’t get me wrong, I quickly tried desperately to turn those thoughts to ones of gratitude and sure, I’d find moments to restore my Faith between the cracks.  But the vicious cycle became routine almost.  I felt stuck.

Again, I looked up, looked within, asked for miracles. As cliche or stupid it may sound I DID just that! I needed a miracle. I couldn’t help inspire anymore because I wasn’t inspired.  Although I felt called to encourage others in need, I too needed someone to speak to me, help me see my own greatness.  It’s all perspective.  Help me shift to see I AM enough & in just being me; may I never quit.  Guide me to be honest & True to my flaws & pain.  Ahaaa there lies my avenue to help encourage at my Truest self!  (Interesting, isn’t it, how we already KNOW the answer if we just ask…we already have everything we need within….) “God does not call the qualified.  He qualifies the called.”

“The day she had stopped pretending and finally allowed herself to walk around in the world as she honestly was. Feeling of relief and peacefulness overwhelmed her.  She had set herself free.”

The power in helping others is where I finally found freedom!  Just as I Am. When I wake I say I haven’t hurt anybody, nobody hurt me, I am alive, I GET TO ____. … many can’t.  I then thought…I rust ran, 13 miles, and that’s beyond enough.  I can now remind myself I’m doing alright :)) Listen we all feel overwhelmed with the pressures of life. The frustrations of work, at least you GET TO go and have a job to get to. Relationships you get to share life with another & maybe GET TO work towards bettering or making it stronger, but you GET TO.  As for your body and image, something I struggled with for years, I ask you look at yourself in the mirror right now.  Two eyes, you GET TO see the wonders and beauty of God’s creation. Two hands, two legs, one leg, no hands…the body is only the vessel. You cannot BE your “situation”; it is not who or what you are. You are not your body, your clothes, your curves, your status, your bank account, your relationship, your car, your tone, your bone: you are a Soul. But it’s all you and yours you GET TO live in and better yourself & others with. This is your time. You GET TO DO this Life.  You’re going to want to give up.  DON’T!  Stay Strong, Keep smiling,  You never know who YOU are inspiring,

TBC……..Thank You and God Bless xx

 

Live Life AUTHENTICALLY

img_2436“WHAT COULD BE MORE FUTILE, MORE INSANE, THAN TO CREATE INNER RESISTANCE TO SOMETHING THAT ALREADY IS?” – Eckhart Tolle – ONLY WHEN YOU RESIST WHAT HAPPENS IN LIFE ARE YOU AT THE MERCY OF WHAT HAPPENS; THE WORLD THEN WILL DETERMINE YOUR HAPPINESS AND UNHAPPINESS.  What could be more insane than to oppose Life itself?  Surrender to what is.  I could not fathom the Life I’d be living had I resisted the unfathomable, undeniable pain, new Life chosen for me 7 years ago.  As cliché as it may sound, suppose I may have found purpose amidst my pain.  As we all are ever evolving, I’m still not quite sure what that may be: #purpose?  But I have set such a radical intention in this Life that makes me want to jump out of bed in the morning! NOT ABOUT ME! HOW CAN I LIFT YOU, ONE PERSON, ONE DAY AT A TIME!?  The thousands I’ve touched and lifted through sharing my story was a gift I resisted for years.  “Such an inspiration” was such a foreign role to be labeled or even more exhausting and frightening, to take on.  I was terrified!  Who am I to “inspire” when I’m just as flawed, as human; when we all just trying to Live.  But I quickly began to understand the significance of living vs. being ALIVE!  Like in real Life, to be happy whaaaat!

I literally embraced ALL that I Am.  When I stopped looking for happiness outside myself … I DO  what I love and DO IT OFTEN!  In return, happiness found me.  SO, I resisted, till perhaps recently.  Lord knows, y’all know, I DO NOT HAVE THE ANSWERS, but either Life could suck or it could be prettttty firkin ahaaamazing! I chose the latter.  Perhaps it truly was a gift of perspective that day.  I chose gratitude and said Yes! to LIFE.  To the LIFE I’ve been given!  Keep DOing what your heart calls you to DO.  You never know who you are inspiring.  Someone,  somewhere needs to Believe. The transformation’s been real 7 years!  Seven years of Grace.  Reflecting 2016.  HAPPIEST HOLYDAYS & GOD BLESS.. Love you’s ~ #BelieveandBecome xx

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VISION

“The VISION that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthroned in your heart .. This you will build your Life by, and this you will become.” xx

Once upon a time…. She had a dream, searching for something greater outside herself to bring it to fruition. He had a greater plan…. till, one day she had a VISION.  It is not in perfection that others are inspired. Let others be inspired by how you deal and use your imperfections. I often forget that I am a constant reminder to others of the unpredictable, inexplainable circumstances we are sometimes handed in life. When I look down at something that once was & is no longer, I’m reminded myself of surviving life’s unpredictable journey, when at times may feel inhumanly painful, scary or confusing. If I could for a moment inspire YOU striving, beautiful young girls to not waste precious, delicate days/years like I did👆🏼 Fixated on a vision that not only did not see myself but thee furthest I had been from others! NEVER feeling enough; no status, job, religion, body, relationship, circumstance can define you! Sometime Life takes you by the hand (literally😜) & I don’t pretend it’s all rainbows & Unicorns (although….💭) I feel, I hurt, I cry, I laugh, I Live & ultimately, I LOVE! He strengthens the weak, sometimes repositioning you to equip you for any battle and pour His strength in to you! I choose happiness AND through Christ, ALL things are possible! … #HisWay #handintheair #iAm #BelieveandBecome xx

EVER EVOLVING

IMG_2346#LoveYourBody. It’s been a long, long journey. Truth be told, the hardest battle of my Life. First ballet shoes at 3 years old, body image has always been a predominant element in my World. Minutes, hours, days, years, an entire Lifetime I have trained. Dancer, Cheer, Gymnast —🖖🏻—> Spinner, Yogi meets #RUNNER! Whether I’m told, too skinny, too muscular, she “eats too many carbs”, body image is an ILLUSION my friends … because no matter how hard you work the only perspective that matters is yours! I’ve ALWAYS been an #athlete. Capable; As long as I breathe Life.

But I will no longer be my biggest nemesis. Whether a marathon or one handed @hot8yoga (on a daily!) It NEVER gets easier, I’m only getting stronger and wiser to understand: I AM ME. ✨Perfectly made in His image.✨ Wherever pushing my physical limits may lead….I Am Me. Much Love to every coach, instructor, mentor. Lord knows, this ain’t easy to say but ya, I think I can FINALLY love my ever evolving body along the way. #iAmMe .. #believeandbecome xx

IF YOU GET TIRED LEARN TO REST. NOT TO QUIT.

“I dedicate my experience to teach, help and inspire others, with or without disability of any sort, to LOVE who you are, embrace your “flaws” and become who you were designed to BE.” ~ @chauntallewis 

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Hiiii!  Welcome back! I’ve taken the year only to refresh, renew and revamp my BLOG // get ready, my VLOG.  Thank you for the continual support although I admit the last 2-3 years have been by far thee most testing, challenging, revealing years of my Life.  The pain, the struggles, the what if’s, the BREAKTHROUGHS, the THANK You’s, the “Lord, we good but..” what now’s, came crashing In! AND NOW here I AM! AT LAST! I’LL BE POSTING ALL (Bday) Month, catching y’all up on my year, to finally launch my own VLOG!!!

JUMPING IN TO THE DAILIES OF MY ART, MY LIFE; AS A BELIEVER, MAKE BELIEVER, MAKEUP ARTIST, ATHLETE, LOVER.  ALL THINGS CREATIVE: ART, BEAUTY, HEALTH, FITNESS, DAILY INSPO, “MY LIFESTYLE” // ALL THINGS FOR OTHERS TO FLOURISH & PROSPER and FOR HE WHO IS GREATER THAN I.  THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT ALONG THE WAY.  LET US ELEVATE, ENCOURAGE CHANGE AND CELEBRATE THIS GLORIOUS LIFE WE LIVE, TOGETHER. ONE.

 

MUCH LOVE, #BELIEVEANDBECOME XX

She is Me. She is You.

Who is She?

She is a Daughter, a Sister. She is a best friend.

She is a pocket full of Light.

She is a spark of something great, getting brighter; a dream grown large; the right thing at the right time.

She is a dancer, an actress, a writer, an artist, an athlete, a lover, a thinker, a Truth-teller. A connoisseur of all the things this wide world has to offer. Her Spirit is the first thing people notice. Her mind always has a mind of its own.

Her Heart.  Though it has been hurt, bears a strong resemblance to a Lotus:  resilient to the worldly happenstance and always flowers again.

Her theory is Love.

She loves. Oh how she loves. With ALL her heart.

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She infuses her day with newness and wonder. She promises herself adventure, new places, different views, a chance to get lost.  She notices the little things, gets a cup of coffee at a different cafe, takes the long walk (or RUN) home.

She walks with anticipation and purpose; with glittering eyes. She finds new hills to climb. She discovers so much unexpected joy.  She begins to Love the journey.

And everyone agrees that the very fact of her in the world means there is still so much good to come.

WHO is SHE?

She is Me.  She is You.

I Am Her.

#BELIEVEANDBECOME xx