THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE STRENGTH, THE COURAGE, THE PASSION, THE DRIVE, THE POWER, LIMITLESS LOVE, THE GIFT OF LIFE ITSELF. THANK YOU FOR MY LIFE!
Exactly 3 years ago today I woke up in a hospital bed surrounded by people who loved me, a garden of beautiful, vibrant flowers and selfless doctors. Tears running down faces, sadness, empathy and pain filled the room. I knew my life was altered and had changed forever that morning. In response to all the LOVE surrounding me, my initial response was, “No no, it’s ok. I’m still here. THANK YOU ALL. WE’RE ALIVE so LET’S LIVE.” More or less, but really…a new perspective whispered “it’s time to truly live your life….if not now then when?” This morning, I again woke up with even more admiration for life than yesterday or the day before or that very morning 3 years ago to this day. I loved my coffee. I loved my body for allowing me an 8 mile run. My mind, my sight. I loved my Mom, my sister, my amazing friends and boyfriend who joined me in another annual “Celebration of Life” last night. I loved the gift of another beautiful day to breathe, love and LIVE! I was right. My life did change in the most incredible way March 18, 2009……I fell in LOVE with LIFE.
“We do not need magic to transform our world. We carry all of the power we need inside ourselves already.” ~J.K. Rowling
I accept that I am a living poster child of surviving life’s unpredictable journey, when at times may feel inhumanly painful, scary or confusing. My life now seems to fulfill one big social experiment. How one individual perceives me to the next is the most elaborate study of the human psyche and behavior. Some are scared, saddened, angered, confused, inspired or simply, just curious when they see me. How, why, what happened to her? Then, for a split second, I can almost see the frequency overload firing as their mind tries to comprehend the meaning of something so “weird” or “sad, tragic” or “inspiring”. Regardless of what people were occupied with in the moment before, once they take my “circumstance” in, I feel a shift; a sense of gratitude for their own life. Some reactions reveal they’re glad “it didn’t happen to them”….and I know first hand that life can change in an instant for anyone. You don’t get an explanation, the answer, the meaning of it all. Just left with your own psyche, inner relationship with self and God, and living experiences to interpret for yourself.
In 3 years what is it I have learned? What have I discovered? I am a constant reminder to others of the unpredictable, inexplainable circumstances we are sometimes handed in life. I have learned that no circumstance truly defines you, but for most of us, we most likely think it does. I believe I was given a “role” in life, a purpose if you will, that allows me to help, teach and inspire others to live more fruitful lives almost every day. The more I embrace that role and all that I am, right here, right now, I get a sense of clarity that whatever I have become up to this point is what, where and who I am suppose to BE*. Whatever this circumstance is, it enables me to give more love. I proceed through the daily hardships, trials, challenges in one way only: Give more LOVE. We are able to survive the pain of any day when we Live in Love.
We all search for that ultimate meaning, purpose or reason behind it all, the only thing that remains true and constant for me is an ever evolving path to create a happy life. That entails trial and error, successes and failures, hits and misses. This way of life is ignites a burning passion for this one Life that never, ever stops stops growing and evolving. “The pursuit of happiness” may insinuate a defeating search to reach ultimate peace and happiness rather than BEing happy and at peace now. However, I’ve stated in previous blogs that it isn’t until we stop searching “out there”, as in outside ourselves, for something or someone to bring us happiness that we find real peace within. YOU are the ONLY one who can provide, create, understand the essence of happiness within self. Nothing and definitely no one else can achieve that for YOU. “Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude.” ~ Denis Waitley
Fall in Love with what you have to offer this world! Loving my new self, just the way I am, regardless of the weirdness, pain, stares, physical and mental challenges allows my “uniqueness” to service others in more ways than I ever imagined. There may be moments of apprehension but the rest of the time find the courage to step out into the world and scream, Hello! This is ME and I’m not going anywhere. It is NOW, and I am never stopping.
I dedicate my experience to teach, help and inspire others, with or without disability of any sort, to LOVE who you are, embrace your “flaws” and become who you are meant to be. I want to encourage us all to educate and teach others rather than pitty and label, relate and connect rather than judge, appreciate and love rather than make assumptions on others situations. This is our one life; we will be challenged, scared, intrigued, tempted, tested only to bring us closer to Truth. Trial and error, successes and failures, hits and misses … embrace, learn, accept, move forward and teach for the means of living a more enriched, invested life.
Oh, you may ask, what could be so “interesting” or “weird” about me that people take a moment out of their lives to give me the real them? Well, for starters, & only starters, exactly 3 years ago today I lost my left hand in a car accident. THANK YOU for today, and EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!
“… nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done! Now if you know what you’re worth then go out and get what you’re worth. But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody! Cowards do that and that ain’t you”! ~ ROCKY 🙂 Best Quote Ever!